Blue Series

I begin my paintings by looking deep in to the forest of my thoughts and fears. There, I find the white rabbit, my guide who takes me deeper into the woods. Within its borders, the skin of the rabbit becomes my prepared canvas. Once dry, I begin to cover it, hiding all its natural beauty by imposing my will. I quickly realize a desire to turn and run from the woods, back to the road that leads to nowhere, where I gaze back toward the trees and the creation that lies within them. Instead of returning, I pick a few berries and leaves to crush into pigment and mix with oil to further disguise who I am. After all these years, I realize that I have tried to figure out where the roots of my self-punishing actions have sprung. The freedom I find through this process has allowed me to discover the pains and pleasures of self-awareness.

My exhibition comes from a place of many hidden secrets. This body of work presents the voiceless children whose battered and battered appearance only shows the superficial, visible effects of the issue. Look deeper and the reprehensible results of abuse, such as dysfunction, violence, and vicious cycles of behavior, can be seen. These paintings bring to light a side of society that should not be ignored or brushed under the rug.

Like poison in berries, the inspiration for this series stems from societal issues I have a deep connection with. The process of creating these works was like childbirth in the urgency I felt in bringing awareness to the problem of child abuse as well as purging my personal struggles and experiences. Once I peer into the trees and follow the rabbit into the forest, I sense a peace and comfort that only comes from the disguise of creation.

oh my WORD this still exists ok... lets play.

This what Ive been up to lately besides raising a child.

Abstract Letter H design created in Adobe Illustrator.

Extra Credit. My book cover was done in Photoshop with the help of dafont.com for specialized font. I wanted to use a photo I had from Halloween. We were dressed as vampires and so I went along with the mystery horror genre. I choose a Polish title since the book takes place in the 1980's Communist Poland.

The story is about a couple who were notorious for blood sucking. Not only from each other but anyone they could get their hands, rather mouth on. They never left any evidence and their footsteps were hard to trace. They lived in a small town in southern Poland and during communist times there were other issues to address rather than these blood sucking tyrants. Rafal and Janeska had grown up close to each other and grew closer as the got older. They grew close enough to share the taste of each others blood. They were considerate to those who willingly contributed but not so gentle with those who were not.

This is a story of the lives of these two individuals who's lives and practiced rituals were way outside of the norm. Get the book a delve into the lives of these artist vampires.

Photo montage was fun and not as difficult as I has expected. Once you learn the keystrokes and get into a pattern of what you are doing it becomes more simplified. I choose the iconic building in downtown Phoenix The Westward Ho to represent. The problem I ran across was having smudges in every single one of my photos, this was due to the faultiness of my digital camera. This put more of a work load on myself having to use the cloning tool to blend the marks out. However I later realized once I put another layer and booster the contrast the marks wouldn't have been visible in the first place.